When i was a kid i had a favorite painting which was a Ganesh Ji in a dancing pose....
i loved it ..adored it....
and one day when i joined my painting school ... i showed it to my teacher the way i used to show it to everyone... and he told nothing absolutely nothing....
and sometime later i knew why....
one day when he was teaching us postures and techniques related to posture ... he pointed out one simple thing in my painting the lack on balance in the dancing Ganesha.... and told that 'when i saw it i could just see the fault in it and hence could not comment anything about it'.....
and that day onwards whenever i saw that painting; instead of the beautiful colours of the background, instead of the efforts put in by the kid, instead of the perfect expressions of the dancing pose; i always saw the imperfection in it....
from that experience i had learnt that technique is good when u learn it and u go beyond imperfections, when u can undo the mistake ;but in this process u always loose the charm, the innocence of the first touch, the fresh look ......
after this incident i have always made it a point to make sure to complete anything at one go but to never look back into the flaws if i dont have the intention of destroying it completely after the flaw is identified......
Few days back my roomie's frn was here and we were having a light chat...
and then suddenly our discussion a direction which was towards art and when i showed him my wall painting he being a professional photographer understands the perspectives the techniques of painting asked a simple question where is the Horizon the painting....
and when i answered its immaterial you wont see the difference in the darkness he still insisted i at-least make him point where it lies....
and i very well understood where he is heading to and after my correct answer he will point out the mistake in the painting and i knew after that the fate for this painting would be the same as for my dancing Ganesha.....
and i answered him something which was wrong but in accordance to the painting.... he must have thought i am a stupid gal who does not understand techniques but he will never understand i am the gal who gives more importance to the efforts and the thoughts then being a perfectionist...
Friday, January 29
Education Vs Literacy !!!
Education is something more than literacy....
we must have come across many 'Padhe likhe Ganwar' in our life the Literates and the 'Anpadh samajhdar' the Educated ones....
so i just thought to jot few examples where i feel like kicking the Literates on the very delicate spots....
1. Breaking queues in billing counters (even during shopping) as if they r only ones in hurry.
2. talking rudely to senior citizens or making fun of them
3. behaving rudely in restaurants with waiters/ bartenders or with their maids at home or the chotu at the chai ka thela
4. When ppl take unnecessary printouts , sometime even dont care to print both sides.
5. Dont care to preserve water , electricity or any natural resource
6. Dont respect someone's personal space by being nosy or poky about matters
7. Run over traffic signals
8. Fear to be near HIV+ people
9. Think its rudeness to ask for a blood test during a arrange marriage
10. When think beauty is only skin deep
11. Behaving like a racist, When more importance is given to people with whiter skin colour
12. Dont respect women at home or outside
13. When people of other sex are nothing more than mere sex toys for them and keep a gaze as if u r stripping in front of them
14. Dont hold a door open for anyone even if they know someone is just behind them
15. When people dont behave sensibly towards people in a group by using a language not understood by all
we must have come across many 'Padhe likhe Ganwar' in our life the Literates and the 'Anpadh samajhdar' the Educated ones....
so i just thought to jot few examples where i feel like kicking the Literates on the very delicate spots....
1. Breaking queues in billing counters (even during shopping) as if they r only ones in hurry.
2. talking rudely to senior citizens or making fun of them
3. behaving rudely in restaurants with waiters/ bartenders or with their maids at home or the chotu at the chai ka thela
4. When ppl take unnecessary printouts , sometime even dont care to print both sides.
5. Dont care to preserve water , electricity or any natural resource
6. Dont respect someone's personal space by being nosy or poky about matters
7. Run over traffic signals
8. Fear to be near HIV+ people
9. Think its rudeness to ask for a blood test during a arrange marriage
10. When think beauty is only skin deep
11. Behaving like a racist, When more importance is given to people with whiter skin colour
12. Dont respect women at home or outside
13. When people of other sex are nothing more than mere sex toys for them and keep a gaze as if u r stripping in front of them
14. Dont hold a door open for anyone even if they know someone is just behind them
15. When people dont behave sensibly towards people in a group by using a language not understood by all
Wednesday, January 13
Priorities !!!
priorities.....
this is a word which can sometimes solve a bunch of your problems but can sometimes create more...even sometimes ppl fight over matters related to priority...
maa ki priority ya biwi ki.....
office ki urgent meeting ki priority ya bacchon ke liye dinner ki......
saas ki baaton ki priority ya apni independence ki.......
but these are times when we have the decision in our hands.....
and there are times when we unknowingly might hurt someone because of these priorities...
we might priortise meeting a frn then staying with family....
we might priortise shopping with a new frn than going to doctor with the one for whom we had hurt our family some time back.....
we might give priority to the talks of one roomie than the other......
as i hav understood, priority is sometimes a decision made by mind based on requirements and sometimes its a decision taken by our heart based on our likings....
but i am yet ot figure out which one should you give more priority to decisions made by mind or heart......
this is a word which can sometimes solve a bunch of your problems but can sometimes create more...even sometimes ppl fight over matters related to priority...
maa ki priority ya biwi ki.....
office ki urgent meeting ki priority ya bacchon ke liye dinner ki......
saas ki baaton ki priority ya apni independence ki.......
but these are times when we have the decision in our hands.....
and there are times when we unknowingly might hurt someone because of these priorities...
we might priortise meeting a frn then staying with family....
we might priortise shopping with a new frn than going to doctor with the one for whom we had hurt our family some time back.....
we might give priority to the talks of one roomie than the other......
as i hav understood, priority is sometimes a decision made by mind based on requirements and sometimes its a decision taken by our heart based on our likings....
but i am yet ot figure out which one should you give more priority to decisions made by mind or heart......
Thursday, January 7
Ruhaniyat !!!
I just happened to attend the Ruhaniyat Hyderabad chapter on 2nd....
the sufi and mystic music festival brought many people under one roof..... be it the singers and musicians from across the country or the audience from the different paths and professions....
i might be a music deaf person... i might not know the raagas , talas....
i can make out the ones, just the right notes that touch your soul....
and it was such a evening....
no words are ever required to describe Love and it could be well explained by the all whos hearts and souls danced to the melodies of the Sufiana kalams and the kawwalis.....
open your soul to the love of the eternal and enjoy the harmony, the frequency to which your heart resonates the maximum.... this is what Ruhaniyat is for me.....
01-01-10
Its new year!!! happy new year 2010 to all of my readers......
i never thought it would be such a great start with a wonderful movie with friends about frienship and the true celebration of frienship at the bare minimum expense , the TV playing some songs in the bg and with a home made cake while we welcomed the year 2010 with chocolaty smiles.....
Monday, December 28
Head vs Heart !!!
some days ago as i was watching the 4th ODI between srilanka and india where india had to chase a score of 300; my roomie made a statement "even if 300 is not a great score india will perform pathetically because the match is in Eden gardens and Stats confirms the same".
may be statictics have a point but i cant believe it because i hav always had faith in india, be it a score of 300 against srilanka or be it 115 score against pakistan in 1999, i always believe in Team India...because there is something in me which cant go againist it how weird the circumstances be...
as during one more discussion with a colleague of mine over the topic in one of my blogs "love aaj kal" ; she was clear over the fact that even if its her last resort she will never be the one who speaks the "L" word first and be a fool for all her life; but for me its just the reverse, i will never hesitate to follow my hearts lead to speak of the "L" word first if its my last resort and even if i know i hav every chance of becoming a fool for lifetime
when i hav a fight with a close frn of mine and we are not talking for a while, even if i know i was right and i know we have huge egos, i have always followed my heart to get over the cold war sometimes breaking the ice with a stupid fight to end up laughing our hearts out...
howerver practical i might be, there are some places where i dont care for wisdom and i follow my instincts; i might sound like some loser sometimes to someone, but, this is what i am for the things/people i love ....
may be statictics have a point but i cant believe it because i hav always had faith in india, be it a score of 300 against srilanka or be it 115 score against pakistan in 1999, i always believe in Team India...because there is something in me which cant go againist it how weird the circumstances be...
as during one more discussion with a colleague of mine over the topic in one of my blogs "love aaj kal" ; she was clear over the fact that even if its her last resort she will never be the one who speaks the "L" word first and be a fool for all her life; but for me its just the reverse, i will never hesitate to follow my hearts lead to speak of the "L" word first if its my last resort and even if i know i hav every chance of becoming a fool for lifetime
when i hav a fight with a close frn of mine and we are not talking for a while, even if i know i was right and i know we have huge egos, i have always followed my heart to get over the cold war sometimes breaking the ice with a stupid fight to end up laughing our hearts out...
howerver practical i might be, there are some places where i dont care for wisdom and i follow my instincts; i might sound like some loser sometimes to someone, but, this is what i am for the things/people i love ....
Sunday, December 20
Happiness and Sadness !!!
Happiness and Sadness.....
they are twin brothers, born together, they stay together and they die together.... only that they happen to give each other enough space that you feel the presence of one of them before realising the other is also present.....
you feel sad because you know what happiness is....you happen to be happy because you have been through sadness....its just so relative yet so absolute....
they are twin brothers, born together, they stay together and they die together.... only that they happen to give each other enough space that you feel the presence of one of them before realising the other is also present.....
you feel sad because you know what happiness is....you happen to be happy because you have been through sadness....its just so relative yet so absolute....
Friday, December 18
To Grow Old With !!!
As this year approaches towards the end, and everyone is planning for welcoming the new year... I see one more birthday of mine coming soon...
With each 19-01, it adds one more gray hair strand, one more year of experience....with each passing year we keep growing old.....
and with this new year as i will step to the next quater of life , i am not able to keep my mind from wondering....
wondering with the one thought.....
can growing old be fun.... can gathering experience with age be worth a feather on the cap....
and my idealistic and optimistic heart replies to my mind....
"yes...but conditions applied...."
and mind wonders
"condition applied ?"....
to which the heart replies again
"Yes...grow old with a person you want to grow old with , not with the person you need to or you have to grow old with...wait for the one and then see the fun of growing old"
mind is still puzzled but there is no logic to counter argument what heart says....
so it says
"lets wait and watch"
With each 19-01, it adds one more gray hair strand, one more year of experience....with each passing year we keep growing old.....
and with this new year as i will step to the next quater of life , i am not able to keep my mind from wondering....
wondering with the one thought.....
can growing old be fun.... can gathering experience with age be worth a feather on the cap....
and my idealistic and optimistic heart replies to my mind....
"yes...but conditions applied...."
and mind wonders
"condition applied ?"....
to which the heart replies again
"Yes...grow old with a person you want to grow old with , not with the person you need to or you have to grow old with...wait for the one and then see the fun of growing old"
mind is still puzzled but there is no logic to counter argument what heart says....
so it says
"lets wait and watch"
Sunday, December 6
Chapters in Life !!!
Last night i was having a talk with one of my good old friends and we were really philosophically discussing about life and miseries.....problems we face.....like...
issues in job life....frustation in personal life....agony we cant share with anyone....a lost friendship....a one sided love affair.....pussy boss.....parents freaking out on the issue of marriage.....irritating in laws....nagging spouse......screaming children......a cold cup of coffee.....nosy neighbours......no salary hikes......juniors getting promoted......potholes on roads......our politicans......some illness.....some stupid book that u read last......someone bitchy around you......the falling stock prices.......a hefy home loan for your tiny apartment in the not so posh locality......etc etc etc.
you name it and someone or the other has it.....problems never spare anyone......rich or poor......old or young.....
with these problems......most of the time we feel as if it is the end of life....but the only truth is its just a confirmation that your life has not yet ended.....
each problem how so ever big or small is always a chapter of your life.....just that some chapters are little long to get over with and some just go in a jiffy.....
some chapters you need to get through to pass in the examination and some you can just avoid going through with your own wisdom.....
some chapters you like to revisit time and again because they are your favorite or vice versa.....and some you just want to close as soon as they are over.....
some chapters are self written and some are as a consiquence of some other authors in your vicinity.....
some chapters can be well skipped with someone else's experience also......
But
again it all depends how good a reader you are and how much time you need to read a chapter.....are you quick enough or you are just a slow reader......
issues in job life....frustation in personal life....agony we cant share with anyone....a lost friendship....a one sided love affair.....pussy boss.....parents freaking out on the issue of marriage.....irritating in laws....nagging spouse......screaming children......a cold cup of coffee.....nosy neighbours......no salary hikes......juniors getting promoted......potholes on roads......our politicans......some illness.....some stupid book that u read last......someone bitchy around you......the falling stock prices.......a hefy home loan for your tiny apartment in the not so posh locality......etc etc etc.
you name it and someone or the other has it.....problems never spare anyone......rich or poor......old or young.....
with these problems......most of the time we feel as if it is the end of life....but the only truth is its just a confirmation that your life has not yet ended.....
each problem how so ever big or small is always a chapter of your life.....just that some chapters are little long to get over with and some just go in a jiffy.....
some chapters you need to get through to pass in the examination and some you can just avoid going through with your own wisdom.....
some chapters you like to revisit time and again because they are your favorite or vice versa.....and some you just want to close as soon as they are over.....
some chapters are self written and some are as a consiquence of some other authors in your vicinity.....
some chapters can be well skipped with someone else's experience also......
But
again it all depends how good a reader you are and how much time you need to read a chapter.....are you quick enough or you are just a slow reader......
To Grow Up Once Again !!!
i was just watching the movie "17 again" and i was wondering what i could have done if I was "17" again...... but if i can really go back to "17" then may be i would prefer a little more time and would ask for "15" again and redo things or add somethings extra to what i have done.....
if i really got a chance "to grow up once again" .....
may be i will be a lil more serious about studies..... a lil more interest in history will also do...it helps in a long run i have just realised...a little interest in novels maybe..who doesnot want to be well read.and y not be well read a little earlier when i am doing it now....
maybe i would have worked seriously on my being overweight....may be a little regular exercise and little sincereity...would have saved me from behvaing like an anaroxic now...maybe a little extra effort to continue with my dance lessions and would have save myself from the embarassment of having 2 left feet...
maybe would have concentrated a little extra in engg classes rather than dozing while in the first bench in the class...maybe i would not have landed up in IT....or maybe i would not have taken up engg at all...may be something else for a change....
lots of maybe and maybe not....on this happy note when my imagination is sky high... its time to land up in reality :)
Friday, November 27
For the ones I love !!!
This ThanksGiving.... this blog is dedicated for the ones i LOVE ,
Life is never a bed of roses…
Life is never a fair game….
Life is never a cake walk…..
For everyone Life is never the same…..
But we are all a part of it…
I just realised that life is as beautiful as you want it to be….
You can see its true colours only when you accept it as it is…..
Stop nagging, come out of the phase of denial…
And learn a new tune….
I don’t know if I am the best daughter….but thanks for letting me feel the love of family….
I don’t know if I am the best sister….but thanks for letting me have a buddy always by my side….
I don’t know if I am a best frn to anyone….but thanks to all of you for letting me know what friendship is….
I don’t know if I will ever be your soulmate….but thanks for letting me fall in love with you…..always remember you hav kissed the soul of a lady so passionately that she will remember it forever ever....
Life is never a bed of roses…
Life is never a fair game….
Life is never a cake walk…..
For everyone Life is never the same…..
But we are all a part of it…
I just realised that life is as beautiful as you want it to be….
You can see its true colours only when you accept it as it is…..
Stop nagging, come out of the phase of denial…
And learn a new tune….
I don’t know if I am the best daughter….but thanks for letting me feel the love of family….
I don’t know if I am the best sister….but thanks for letting me have a buddy always by my side….
I don’t know if I am a best frn to anyone….but thanks to all of you for letting me know what friendship is….
I don’t know if I will ever be your soulmate….but thanks for letting me fall in love with you…..always remember you hav kissed the soul of a lady so passionately that she will remember it forever ever....
Thursday, November 26
Love Aaj Kal !!!
Today morning i happened to read an article
" http://epaper.timesofindia.com/Repository/ml.asp?Ref=VE9JSC8yMDA5LzExLzI3I0FyMDI2MDE=&Mode=HTML&Locale=english-skin-custom " ...
and it says boys are faster than gals in saying the L word, this is what gals prefer coming it from a boy and this is what their elders always teach them as a part of culture and tradition.....
it also gives some stats that boys take 7 months to say it and gals take 8 months ..... that makes boys faster in the race of love.....
but lets say a gal has completed her quota of 8 months and the guy she likes has not yet reciprocated..... will it be wrong in this situation if the gal takes the lead and proposes the boy.....
will this love story bloom....
logically it should.... but generally we hav seen it doesnot..... if gals become a lil too frank in matter of love and like.....
y is it so that we dont approve of gals proposing ?
(if you say you do, then ask the same question again after 5 minutes and you will realise you dont ^_^ , thats the irony of life , we act differently than what we say)
there are many instances in our mythology and history where we read of "Swayamvar" ....
it was an oppurtunity given to gal to search herself a worthy husband....
be it "Ram" proving his might with the "Shiv Dhanusha" or "Arjun" with his "Gandiv" ..we hav heard of many instances like this one where "Subhadra" (sister of krishna) decides to flee away with "Arjuna".....
if that could happen in the era of bows and arrows and if a women's feelings were respected then...
y not now when its the era of Rocket science and when gals fly planes.....
Why do we dont approve of gals stating the "L" letter word first then her male counterpart....
The boy has also proved his might not by "brekaing a shiv dhanusha" but by proving himself to be loving , caring, matured, sensible and financially stable person (believe me these are the tests to pass in the modern world)......
I think... the boy should feel proud that he is worhty enough to Woo a lady... and has proved himself to be a worhy husband ...
" http://epaper.timesofindia.com/Repository/ml.asp?Ref=VE9JSC8yMDA5LzExLzI3I0FyMDI2MDE=&Mode=HTML&Locale=english-skin-custom " ...
and it says boys are faster than gals in saying the L word, this is what gals prefer coming it from a boy and this is what their elders always teach them as a part of culture and tradition.....
it also gives some stats that boys take 7 months to say it and gals take 8 months ..... that makes boys faster in the race of love.....
but lets say a gal has completed her quota of 8 months and the guy she likes has not yet reciprocated..... will it be wrong in this situation if the gal takes the lead and proposes the boy.....
will this love story bloom....
logically it should.... but generally we hav seen it doesnot..... if gals become a lil too frank in matter of love and like.....
y is it so that we dont approve of gals proposing ?
(if you say you do, then ask the same question again after 5 minutes and you will realise you dont ^_^ , thats the irony of life , we act differently than what we say)
there are many instances in our mythology and history where we read of "Swayamvar" ....
it was an oppurtunity given to gal to search herself a worthy husband....
be it "Ram" proving his might with the "Shiv Dhanusha" or "Arjun" with his "Gandiv" ..we hav heard of many instances like this one where "Subhadra" (sister of krishna) decides to flee away with "Arjuna".....
if that could happen in the era of bows and arrows and if a women's feelings were respected then...
y not now when its the era of Rocket science and when gals fly planes.....
Why do we dont approve of gals stating the "L" letter word first then her male counterpart....
The boy has also proved his might not by "brekaing a shiv dhanusha" but by proving himself to be loving , caring, matured, sensible and financially stable person (believe me these are the tests to pass in the modern world)......
I think... the boy should feel proud that he is worhty enough to Woo a lady... and has proved himself to be a worhy husband ...
Wednesday, November 25
Love and Other Disasters !!!
Yesterday I happened to stumble across a movie CD and decided to watch it…… for its name said “Love and Other Disasters” , what a wonderful name…….. and it was worth a watch….. for everyone who think of “True Love”…
It’s the story of a Gal ‘Emily’ who is too practical to fall in love and too immature to still think her knight in the shining armour will come soon to sweep her away with the first real kiss of love…….
In the whole process she meets a young man Paolo(colleague) and makes friends instantly , but the poor chap falls in love immediately and everytime they meet his love for her intensifies……..
Finally one day he proposes in a one of the most weird cirumstances (you need to watch it to know how weird the cirumstance was) ……
Later Emily decides somethinng :
“ Emily : I'm not so sure. Love isn't always a lightning bolt, you know? Maybe sometimes it's just a choice. That's just it. I don't know that Paolo's the love of my life, but I've decided to give him the chance to be. Maybe true love is a decision. You know, a decision to take a chance with somebody. To give to somebody. Without worrying wether they'll give anything back. Or if they're gonna hurt you, or if they really are the one. Maybe love isn't something that happens to you. Maybe it's something you have to choose. “
How many of us actually decide to give someone a chance….
In India it’s a lil common I will say when parents find us a match and we decide to give them 6 months to fall in love and then 6 months to decide if it’s the True Love which we were looking for all this while in our life….
But my question is do we give a chance bcoz we really want to ? or
bcoz we have no say in front of our parents decision ?
Now if you say its not the same as I am thinking then why we never gave someone a chance who already loves us…. Not 6 months but not even 6 days or 6 hrs…..
Why we just say “I am sorry but you are not the one I think about the same way”
Was it the fault of the person who loves you is that they became your friend first rather than becoming the favorite of your parents……
Is this the only fault for not getting a chance……
If I ask the question… how many of us ever got a chance and how many of us ever gave a chance…..
I would say count is still “0” both sides………
Lets see if someone does a debut......
It’s the story of a Gal ‘Emily’ who is too practical to fall in love and too immature to still think her knight in the shining armour will come soon to sweep her away with the first real kiss of love…….
In the whole process she meets a young man Paolo(colleague) and makes friends instantly , but the poor chap falls in love immediately and everytime they meet his love for her intensifies……..
Finally one day he proposes in a one of the most weird cirumstances (you need to watch it to know how weird the cirumstance was) ……
Later Emily decides somethinng :
“ Emily : I'm not so sure. Love isn't always a lightning bolt, you know? Maybe sometimes it's just a choice. That's just it. I don't know that Paolo's the love of my life, but I've decided to give him the chance to be. Maybe true love is a decision. You know, a decision to take a chance with somebody. To give to somebody. Without worrying wether they'll give anything back. Or if they're gonna hurt you, or if they really are the one. Maybe love isn't something that happens to you. Maybe it's something you have to choose. “
How many of us actually decide to give someone a chance….
In India it’s a lil common I will say when parents find us a match and we decide to give them 6 months to fall in love and then 6 months to decide if it’s the True Love which we were looking for all this while in our life….
But my question is do we give a chance bcoz we really want to ? or
bcoz we have no say in front of our parents decision ?
Now if you say its not the same as I am thinking then why we never gave someone a chance who already loves us…. Not 6 months but not even 6 days or 6 hrs…..
Why we just say “I am sorry but you are not the one I think about the same way”
Was it the fault of the person who loves you is that they became your friend first rather than becoming the favorite of your parents……
Is this the only fault for not getting a chance……
If I ask the question… how many of us ever got a chance and how many of us ever gave a chance…..
I would say count is still “0” both sides………
Lets see if someone does a debut......
Saturday, November 21
Memories and Lonliness - 2 !!!
after my last blog i got several feedbacks from readers
and one of which was "even if u r alone u cant call it lonliness till your thoughts and emotions accompany you"...
i would say "good say".. and "its true"....
through my thoughts and emotions i interact with myself...
i try to understand myself better...
i can plan for things ...
and i can say words out loud which i may hesitate to share with anyone else....
also i can call up someone family or friends whom i wish to talk...
but ,in my opinion,
sometimes we need someone beside us not just emotionally but physically too...
sometimes its boring to listen to the sound of ur breath only....and it feels good to hear someone else's breathing in the silence....
sometimes it feels more comfortable to have a shoulder to lean to than to have a devoted ear far away....
sometimes it just feels good to have a finger to hold on to rather than a object as a piece of memory to cling on...
sometimes you want to voice ur feeling and emotions and you dont want to pen it down or text it but you want to hear the very sound of if while you say it looking in someone's eyes....
and one of which was "even if u r alone u cant call it lonliness till your thoughts and emotions accompany you"...
i would say "good say".. and "its true"....
through my thoughts and emotions i interact with myself...
i try to understand myself better...
i can plan for things ...
and i can say words out loud which i may hesitate to share with anyone else....
also i can call up someone family or friends whom i wish to talk...
but ,in my opinion,
sometimes we need someone beside us not just emotionally but physically too...
sometimes its boring to listen to the sound of ur breath only....and it feels good to hear someone else's breathing in the silence....
sometimes it feels more comfortable to have a shoulder to lean to than to have a devoted ear far away....
sometimes it just feels good to have a finger to hold on to rather than a object as a piece of memory to cling on...
sometimes you want to voice ur feeling and emotions and you dont want to pen it down or text it but you want to hear the very sound of if while you say it looking in someone's eyes....
Friday, November 20
Memories and Lonliness !!!
have you ever had the feeling of lonliness while in a crowd....
you must have..... everyone now or then, less often or more often definitely feels this.....
standing on the road and looking at the busy traffic where everyone is headed for a destination....but you feel lost...you are confused if you need to walk on this side of the road or take the other side.....
a bunch of people sitting on the lawn chatting their life away....and you long for atleast one company in the coffee house full of all strange faces....
a family in the multiplex buying popcorns and pepsi and getting ready for their show...and you holding a full plate of samosa , coke and what not long for your family and the masala dosa treats you used to have with them....
a newly wed couple returning from office decide to take grocery home and are interested in taking care of their better half's needs first...and you in the supermart now realise that you have not made a dinner/lunch of your spouse's choice its always the easy to make meals you care about....and you become teary eyed thinking of your first year after marriage...and you look for some loneliness in the jammed store...
what makes life so lonely so measeable sometimes....is it lonely because we stay in the memories and forget to live in the present ....or is it because our present is so lonely that we love to cling to our pasts.....
you must have..... everyone now or then, less often or more often definitely feels this.....
standing on the road and looking at the busy traffic where everyone is headed for a destination....but you feel lost...you are confused if you need to walk on this side of the road or take the other side.....
a bunch of people sitting on the lawn chatting their life away....and you long for atleast one company in the coffee house full of all strange faces....
a family in the multiplex buying popcorns and pepsi and getting ready for their show...and you holding a full plate of samosa , coke and what not long for your family and the masala dosa treats you used to have with them....
a newly wed couple returning from office decide to take grocery home and are interested in taking care of their better half's needs first...and you in the supermart now realise that you have not made a dinner/lunch of your spouse's choice its always the easy to make meals you care about....and you become teary eyed thinking of your first year after marriage...and you look for some loneliness in the jammed store...
what makes life so lonely so measeable sometimes....is it lonely because we stay in the memories and forget to live in the present ....or is it because our present is so lonely that we love to cling to our pasts.....
Monday, November 9
The Half Truth !!!
I have a philosophy in life...
when you dont want to play politics and when you dont want to lie either... the best option is to say the HALF TRUTH...
i believe life is all about the half truth and we should learn to live with that....
sometimes too much knowledge also becomes harmful so why not enjoy with a little less.....
its not like hiding away from the truth but its like not chasing the rest of the truth....
many of you might not fully agree with me but its not like having a debate its just trying to look from different perspectives.....
when you dont want to play politics and when you dont want to lie either... the best option is to say the HALF TRUTH...
i believe life is all about the half truth and we should learn to live with that....
sometimes too much knowledge also becomes harmful so why not enjoy with a little less.....
its not like hiding away from the truth but its like not chasing the rest of the truth....
many of you might not fully agree with me but its not like having a debate its just trying to look from different perspectives.....
Monday, November 2
A PRAYER !!!
दुआ करो ...
की मैं भटक ना जाऊँ कहीं अकेले किसी घने जंगल में
और ना ही रह जाऊँ कहीं अकेले किसी रेतीले कंटीले मरुस्थल में
ना ही खो जाऊँ किसी वादियों में तनहा
और ना रह जाऊँ मैं अकेले कटे से किन्ही द्वीपों की तरह
दुआ करो ...
की दूर रहे वो गरम लू की थपेडे, जो पिघला कर पानी ना कर दें मेरे संजोय हुए हसीं लम्हे
की झेल लूँ मैं हर एक मौसम को सख्त शिखरों की तरह
की मैं हो जाऊँ किनारों की तरह, जो सह ले हर लहरों को अपनों की तरह
वादा करो ...
की साथ निभाए चलोगे मेरा, परछाइयों और बिजलियों की परे
की मुश्किलों में साथ रहोगे मेरे अडिग इन् चट्टानों की तरह
की मेरी हर खुशी में झूम उठोगे फूलों और बाहारों की तरह
की हर मौसम में साथ दोगे कभी उजली धुप कभी इन्द्र-धनुष की तरह
दुआ करो ...
की बहती रहे मेरे जीवन में यह बसंती पवन
की मैं हमेशा आबाद रहूँ ख़ूबसूरत वादियों की तरह
it needs our love , care , protection and prayers with joined hands that it lives long to tell the stories of every friendshp it has ever seen in its lifetime to the generations to come....
wish our friendship a long life...
की मैं भटक ना जाऊँ कहीं अकेले किसी घने जंगल में
और ना ही रह जाऊँ कहीं अकेले किसी रेतीले कंटीले मरुस्थल में
ना ही खो जाऊँ किसी वादियों में तनहा
और ना रह जाऊँ मैं अकेले कटे से किन्ही द्वीपों की तरह
दुआ करो ...
की दूर रहे वो गरम लू की थपेडे, जो पिघला कर पानी ना कर दें मेरे संजोय हुए हसीं लम्हे
की झेल लूँ मैं हर एक मौसम को सख्त शिखरों की तरह
की मैं हो जाऊँ किनारों की तरह, जो सह ले हर लहरों को अपनों की तरह
वादा करो ...
की साथ निभाए चलोगे मेरा, परछाइयों और बिजलियों की परे
की मुश्किलों में साथ रहोगे मेरे अडिग इन् चट्टानों की तरह
की मेरी हर खुशी में झूम उठोगे फूलों और बाहारों की तरह
की हर मौसम में साथ दोगे कभी उजली धुप कभी इन्द्र-धनुष की तरह
दुआ करो ...
की बहती रहे मेरे जीवन में यह बसंती पवन
की मैं हमेशा आबाद रहूँ ख़ूबसूरत वादियों की तरह
it needs our love , care , protection and prayers with joined hands that it lives long to tell the stories of every friendshp it has ever seen in its lifetime to the generations to come....
wish our friendship a long life...
Message for my Friends !!!
Friendship means sharing the same road whereever it leads.... but every road is rough for me if there is no friend to cheer..
so this is for all my friends.....with whom i have shared a part of my life.....
"When these beautiful days will be gone...
When i will long to see all what i own...
i will lean on my chair in my gardern..
and will look up to the heaven...
to thank God for all his gifts...
that he has given me in my life in some shifts...
i will look into the pages of my life...
my life in your words, in your summaries...
to cheer me up in a lonely day...
to take my fears away...
what i will surely say ...is ...
i need your help...
to take forward my frozen step...
so please... write me your heart within...
to be kept with me for all my autumn and springs...."
so this is for all my friends.....with whom i have shared a part of my life.....
"When these beautiful days will be gone...
When i will long to see all what i own...
i will lean on my chair in my gardern..
and will look up to the heaven...
to thank God for all his gifts...
that he has given me in my life in some shifts...
i will look into the pages of my life...
my life in your words, in your summaries...
to cheer me up in a lonely day...
to take my fears away...
what i will surely say ...is ...
i need your help...
to take forward my frozen step...
so please... write me your heart within...
to be kept with me for all my autumn and springs...."
Nostalgic !!!
Some days are just so similar to any other day of the week yet they feel so different...
The chill in the air feels new, but the fragnance in it makes you remember somebody...
The morning dews they sparkle the same way, but the shine reminds you of someone's eyes...
The grass is wet as always, but it makes you remember someone's touch on your skin...
The trees they dance the same way, but it reminds you of someone's lively attitude...
The breeze blows through your hair the same way still fills you in a spine chilling tremble as if he is by your side whispering your name slowly in your ears...
a longing and a sense of belonging....
The chill in the air feels new, but the fragnance in it makes you remember somebody...
The morning dews they sparkle the same way, but the shine reminds you of someone's eyes...
The grass is wet as always, but it makes you remember someone's touch on your skin...
The trees they dance the same way, but it reminds you of someone's lively attitude...
The breeze blows through your hair the same way still fills you in a spine chilling tremble as if he is by your side whispering your name slowly in your ears...
a longing and a sense of belonging....
Tuesday, October 13
What a Day !!!
The day starts with an alarm at 6.00 ; oh my my …..it cannot be a wake up call its just past midnite for me… but no… its happening and its reality…. So I drag myself up to a quick brush and a cup of hot tea….And when I am almost awake I run to bus stand to catch a bus….
And then after running back from the railway station I run a quick bath and then off to office…
And I take a auto to CT and midway I realise I have just left the money in my other purse which I had carried to the station and I hav an empty wallet with 3/- and it takes 5/- till CT…
I an honest person thus decide to get down midway pay the 3/- and walk the rest…
The scorching heat has taken the toll and I feel like dehydrating and dying on the raod…
Somehow I make it till CT and look for a cab and its AC…..
And what do I see there.. the usual cabs heading for ATP today deny to take us to campus and the driver claims it’s a new rule… ohh man I hav to now wait in the sun for the next cab….and all these things happen when u really are getting late….phewwwww….
And bang I reach office…and one of my colleague says “hey u have put on blusher also..makeup and all any spl ocassion”….how do I say her its just the sun kissed cheeks and no pehla pehla pyaar….am past the page of that louuu thing....
and its 11.00 now and everyone save me is in knee deep work…and I am supposed to do the same now…. And I realise I have broken my specs….i just don’t know how…but the inevitable has happened….for me working w/o specs is kinda like frog without water….its not impossible but really really tough to pull through the whole day…
And then I am working working and working but y r things not moving….why everybody is able to proceed and for me the App is giving error in every page….. co’on this cannot be happening now when I have to submit deliverables and wanna go back home early…. But why the hell all the pages are crashing with my Midas touch….
And then somehow the minimum amount of work to be done is over and I am ready to run back home…..
And then this nice guy of my floor on whom I have crush for the past 1 yr offers to drop me home…and I deny politely saying I can take a cab back home….F*** my modesty…
And then I see him leaving and I am almost on his way and he might ask me again…and how can I decline him again..it would be so rude…and my heart leaps a bit and then I see someone else also leaps besides me with a big Hello… ohh my long lost some damm frn…and I see him glide past me on his bike…and then I see the cab is also gone and when I turn back my long lost frn is also gone….
And that means I have to wait for half an hour more for the next cab….
Now somehow after the dreaded wait I have achieved to get half way till CT and I intend to take a share auto for the next half….
And I ask autowala “Madhapur” and he frowns and tells “Ameerpet , Checkpost” ..
Go to hell you damm three tyre vehicle owner…. I will get one more…my ego boasts....
And to my saviour comes one good soul who agrees to drop me till my destination…
And now am almost home and when I think of giving the 5/- change I suddenly remember the lowest denomination I have now is 500/- which I just got from the ATM… thanks to my empty wallet you remember rite which i had while coming office...
Oh no no no… this the worst nightmare of both the autodriver and mine… and he starts screaming seeing The Note and after some serious hardwork running from shop to shop on the jammed road I manage to get 495/- + 5/- … I just hope nothing more happens to this eventful day...
And can you just believe all this was happening on my PMS days…
I just cant believe I have gone through all this when I think back… may be I am getting over sensitive.... thanks to PMS... i owe you this emotional outburst…
BUT after this hard day when I rang the bell and heard the sweet tinkling sound of the anklets and when i saw that sweet welcoming smile and that aroma of the mom made food 'methi ke parathe and aloo gobi sabji ' and when I hugged her tight as I went to sleep I just knew that bad times never last long….
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