Monday, December 28

Head vs Heart !!!

some days ago as i was watching the 4th ODI between srilanka and india where india had to chase a score of 300; my roomie made a statement "even if 300 is not a great score india will perform pathetically because the match is in Eden gardens and Stats confirms the same".
may be statictics have a point but i cant believe it because i hav always had faith in india, be it a score of 300 against srilanka or be it 115 score against pakistan in 1999, i always believe in Team India...because there is something in me which cant go againist it how weird the circumstances be...

as during one more discussion with a colleague of mine over the topic in one of my blogs "love aaj kal" ; she was clear over the fact that even if its her last resort she will never be the one who speaks the "L" word first and be a fool for all her life; but for me its just the reverse, i will never hesitate to follow my hearts lead to speak of the "L" word first if its my last resort and even if i know i hav every chance of becoming a fool for lifetime

when i hav a fight with a close frn of mine and we are not talking for a while, even if i know i was right and i know we have huge egos, i have always followed my heart to get over the cold war sometimes breaking the ice with a stupid fight to end up laughing our hearts out...

howerver practical i might be, there are some places where i dont care for wisdom and i follow my instincts; i might sound like some loser sometimes to someone, but, this is what i am for the things/people i love ....

Sunday, December 20

Happiness and Sadness !!!

Happiness and Sadness.....
they are twin brothers, born together, they stay together and they die together.... only that they happen to give each other enough space that you feel the presence of one of them before realising the other is also present.....
you feel sad because you know what happiness is....you happen to be happy because you have been through sadness....its just so relative yet so absolute....

Friday, December 18

To Grow Old With !!!

As this year approaches towards the end, and everyone is planning for welcoming the new year... I see one more birthday of mine coming soon...
With each 19-01, it adds one more gray hair strand, one more year of experience....with each passing year we keep growing old.....
and with this new year as i will step to the next quater of life , i am not able to keep my mind from wondering....
wondering with the one thought.....
can growing old be fun.... can gathering experience with age be worth a feather on the cap....

and my idealistic and optimistic heart replies to my mind....
"yes...but conditions applied...."

and mind wonders
"condition applied ?"....

to which the heart replies again
"Yes...grow old with a person you want to grow old with , not with the person you need to or you have to grow old with...wait for the one and then see the fun of growing old"

mind is still puzzled but there is no logic to counter argument what heart says....
so it says
"lets wait and watch"

Sunday, December 6

Chapters in Life !!!

Last night i was having a talk with one of my good old friends and we were really philosophically discussing about life and miseries.....problems we face.....like...
issues in job life....frustation in personal life....agony we cant share with anyone....a lost friendship....a one sided love affair.....pussy boss.....parents freaking out on the issue of marriage.....irritating in laws....nagging spouse......screaming children......a cold cup of coffee.....nosy neighbours......no salary hikes......juniors getting promoted......potholes on roads......our politicans......some illness.....some stupid book that u read last......someone bitchy around you......the falling stock prices.......a hefy home loan for your tiny apartment in the not so posh locality......etc etc etc.

you name it and someone or the other has it.....problems never spare anyone......rich or poor......old or young.....
with these problems......most of the time we feel as if it is the end of life....but the only truth is its just a confirmation that your life has not yet ended.....

each problem how so ever big or small is always a chapter of your life.....just that some chapters are little long to get over with and some just go in a jiffy.....
some chapters you need to get through to pass in the examination and some you can just avoid going through with your own wisdom.....
some chapters you like to revisit time and again because they are your favorite or vice versa.....and some you just want to close as soon as they are over.....
some chapters are self written and some are as a consiquence of some other authors in your vicinity.....
some chapters can be well skipped with someone else's experience also......
But
again it all depends how good a reader you are and how much time you need to read a chapter.....are you quick enough or you are just a slow reader......

To Grow Up Once Again !!!

i was just watching the movie "17 again" and i was wondering what i could have done if I was "17" again...... but if i can really go back to "17" then may be i would prefer a little more time and would ask for "15" again and redo things or add somethings extra to what i have done.....

if i really got a chance "to grow up once again" .....

may be i will be a lil more serious about studies..... a lil more interest in history will also do...it helps in a long run i have just realised...a little interest in novels maybe..who doesnot want to be well read.and y not be well read a little earlier when i am doing it now....

maybe i would have worked seriously on my being overweight....may be a little regular exercise and little sincereity...would have saved me from behvaing like an anaroxic now...maybe a little extra effort to continue with my dance lessions and would have save myself from the embarassment of having 2 left feet...


maybe would have concentrated a little extra in engg classes rather than dozing while in the first bench in the class...maybe i would not have landed up in IT....or maybe i would not have taken up engg at all...may be something else for a change....


lots of maybe and maybe not....on this happy note when my imagination is sky high... its time to land up in reality :)

Friday, November 27

For the ones I love !!!

This ThanksGiving.... this blog is dedicated for the ones i LOVE ,

Life is never a bed of roses…
Life is never a fair game….
Life is never a cake walk…..
For everyone Life is never the same…..

But we are all a part of it…
I just realised that life is as beautiful as you want it to be….
You can see its true colours only when you accept it as it is…..

Stop nagging, come out of the phase of denial…
And learn a new tune….

I don’t know if I am the best daughter….but thanks for letting me feel the love of family….
I don’t know if I am the best sister….but thanks for letting me have a buddy always by my side….
I don’t know if I am a best frn to anyone….but thanks to all of you for letting me know what friendship is….
I don’t know if I will ever be your soulmate….but thanks for letting me fall in love with you…..always remember you hav kissed the soul of a lady so passionately that she will remember it forever ever....

Thursday, November 26

Love Aaj Kal !!!

Today morning i happened to read an article
" http://epaper.timesofindia.com/Repository/ml.asp?Ref=VE9JSC8yMDA5LzExLzI3I0FyMDI2MDE=&Mode=HTML&Locale=english-skin-custom " ...
and it says boys are faster than gals in saying the L word, this is what gals prefer coming it from a boy and this is what their elders always teach them as a part of culture and tradition.....
it also gives some stats that boys take 7 months to say it and gals take 8 months ..... that makes boys faster in the race of love.....

but lets say a gal has completed her quota of 8 months and the guy she likes has not yet reciprocated..... will it be wrong in this situation if the gal takes the lead and proposes the boy.....
will this love story bloom....
logically it should.... but generally we hav seen it doesnot..... if gals become a lil too frank in matter of love and like.....

y is it so that we dont approve of gals proposing ?
(if you say you do, then ask the same question again after 5 minutes and you will realise you dont ^_^ , thats the irony of life , we act differently than what we say)

there are many instances in our mythology and history where we read of "Swayamvar" ....
it was an oppurtunity given to gal to search herself a worthy husband....
be it "Ram" proving his might with the "Shiv Dhanusha" or "Arjun" with his "Gandiv" ..we hav heard of many instances like this one where "Subhadra" (sister of krishna) decides to flee away with "Arjuna".....

if that could happen in the era of bows and arrows and if a women's feelings were respected then...
y not now when its the era of Rocket science and when gals fly planes.....
Why do we dont approve of gals stating the "L" letter word first then her male counterpart....
The boy has also proved his might not by "brekaing a shiv dhanusha" but by proving himself to be loving , caring, matured, sensible and financially stable person (believe me these are the tests to pass in the modern world)......

I think... the boy should feel proud that he is worhty enough to Woo a lady... and has proved himself to be a worhy husband ...

Wednesday, November 25

Love and Other Disasters !!!

Yesterday I happened to stumble across a movie CD and decided to watch it…… for its name said “Love and Other Disasters” , what a wonderful name…….. and it was worth a watch….. for everyone who think of “True Love”…

It’s the story of a Gal ‘Emily’ who is too practical to fall in love and too immature to still think her knight in the shining armour will come soon to sweep her away with the first real kiss of love…….
In the whole process she meets a young man Paolo(colleague) and makes friends instantly , but the poor chap falls in love immediately and everytime they meet his love for her intensifies……..
Finally one day he proposes in a one of the most weird cirumstances (you need to watch it to know how weird the cirumstance was) ……

Later Emily decides somethinng :
“ Emily : I'm not so sure. Love isn't always a lightning bolt, you know? Maybe sometimes it's just a choice. That's just it. I don't know that Paolo's the love of my life, but I've decided to give him the chance to be. Maybe true love is a decision. You know, a decision to take a chance with somebody. To give to somebody. Without worrying wether they'll give anything back. Or if they're gonna hurt you, or if they really are the one. Maybe love isn't something that happens to you. Maybe it's something you have to choose. “

How many of us actually decide to give someone a chance….
In India it’s a lil common I will say when parents find us a match and we decide to give them 6 months to fall in love and then 6 months to decide if it’s the True Love which we were looking for all this while in our life….
But my question is do we give a chance bcoz we really want to ? or
bcoz we have no say in front of our parents decision ?

Now if you say its not the same as I am thinking then why we never gave someone a chance who already loves us…. Not 6 months but not even 6 days or 6 hrs…..
Why we just say “I am sorry but you are not the one I think about the same way”
Was it the fault of the person who loves you is that they became your friend first rather than becoming the favorite of your parents……
Is this the only fault for not getting a chance……

If I ask the question… how many of us ever got a chance and how many of us ever gave a chance…..
I would say count is still “0” both sides………
Lets see if someone does a debut......

Saturday, November 21

Memories and Lonliness - 2 !!!

after my last blog i got several feedbacks from readers
and one of which was "even if u r alone u cant call it lonliness till your thoughts and emotions accompany you"...

i would say "good say".. and "its true"....

through my thoughts and emotions i interact with myself...
i try to understand myself better...
i can plan for things ...
and i can say words out loud which i may hesitate to share with anyone else....
also i can call up someone family or friends whom i wish to talk...

but ,in my opinion,
sometimes we need someone beside us not just emotionally but physically too...

sometimes its boring to listen to the sound of ur breath only....and it feels good to hear someone else's breathing in the silence....

sometimes it feels more comfortable to have a shoulder to lean to than to have a devoted ear far away....

sometimes it just feels good to have a finger to hold on to rather than a object as a piece of memory to cling on...

sometimes you want to voice ur feeling and emotions and you dont want to pen it down or text it but you want to hear the very sound of if while you say it looking in someone's eyes....

Friday, November 20

Memories and Lonliness !!!

have you ever had the feeling of lonliness while in a crowd....
you must have..... everyone now or then, less often or more often definitely feels this.....

standing on the road and looking at the busy traffic where everyone is headed for a destination....but you feel lost...you are confused if you need to walk on this side of the road or take the other side.....

a bunch of people sitting on the lawn chatting their life away....and you long for atleast one company in the coffee house full of all strange faces....

a family in the multiplex buying popcorns and pepsi and getting ready for their show...and you holding a full plate of samosa , coke and what not long for your family and the masala dosa treats you used to have with them....

a newly wed couple returning from office decide to take grocery home and are interested in taking care of their better half's needs first...and you in the supermart now realise that you have not made a dinner/lunch of your spouse's choice its always the easy to make meals you care about....and you become teary eyed thinking of your first year after marriage...and you look for some loneliness in the jammed store...

what makes life so lonely so measeable sometimes....is it lonely because we stay in the memories and forget to live in the present ....or is it because our present is so lonely that we love to cling to our pasts.....

Monday, November 9

The Half Truth !!!

I have a philosophy in life...
when you dont want to play politics and when you dont want to lie either... the best option is to say the HALF TRUTH...
i believe life is all about the half truth and we should learn to live with that....
sometimes too much knowledge also becomes harmful so why not enjoy with a little less.....
its not like hiding away from the truth but its like not chasing the rest of the truth....
many of you might not fully agree with me but its not like having a debate its just trying to look from different perspectives.....

Monday, November 2

A PRAYER !!!

दुआ करो ...
की मैं भटक ना जाऊँ कहीं अकेले किसी घने जंगल में
और ना ही रह जाऊँ कहीं अकेले किसी रेतीले कंटीले मरुस्थल में
ना ही खो जाऊँ किसी वादियों में तनहा
और ना रह जाऊँ मैं अकेले कटे से किन्ही द्वीपों की तरह

दुआ करो ...
की दूर रहे वो गरम लू की थपेडे, जो पिघला कर पानी ना कर दें मेरे संजोय हुए हसीं लम्हे
की झेल लूँ मैं हर एक मौसम को सख्त शिखरों की तरह
की मैं हो जाऊँ किनारों की तरह, जो सह ले हर लहरों को अपनों की तरह

वादा करो ...
की साथ निभाए चलोगे मेरा, परछाइयों और बिजलियों की परे
की मुश्किलों में साथ रहोगे मेरे अडिग इन् चट्टानों की तरह
की मेरी हर खुशी में झूम उठोगे फूलों और बाहारों की तरह
की हर मौसम में साथ दोगे कभी उजली धुप कभी इन्द्र-धनुष की तरह

दुआ करो ...
की बहती रहे मेरे जीवन में यह बसंती पवन
की मैं हमेशा आबाद रहूँ ख़ूबसूरत वादियों की तरह

it needs our love , care , protection and prayers with joined hands that it lives long to tell the stories of every friendshp it has ever seen in its lifetime to the generations to come....
wish our friendship a long life...

Message for my Friends !!!

Friendship means sharing the same road whereever it leads.... but every road is rough for me if there is no friend to cheer..
so this is for all my friends.....with whom i have shared a part of my life.....
"When these beautiful days will be gone...
When i will long to see all what i own...
i will lean on my chair in my gardern..
and will look up to the heaven...
to thank God for all his gifts...
that he has given me in my life in some shifts...
i will look into the pages of my life...
my life in your words, in your summaries...
to cheer me up in a lonely day...
to take my fears away...
what i will surely say ...is ...
i need your help...
to take forward my frozen step...
so please... write me your heart within...
to be kept with me for all my autumn and springs...."

Nostalgic !!!

Some days are just so similar to any other day of the week yet they feel so different...
The chill in the air feels new, but the fragnance in it makes you remember somebody...
The morning dews they sparkle the same way, but the shine reminds you of someone's eyes...
The grass is wet as always, but it makes you remember someone's touch on your skin...
The trees they dance the same way, but it reminds you of someone's lively attitude...
The breeze blows through your hair the same way still fills you in a spine chilling tremble as if he is by your side whispering your name slowly in your ears...
a longing and a sense of belonging....

Tuesday, October 13

What a Day !!!


The day starts with an alarm at 6.00 ; oh my my …..it cannot be a wake up call its just past midnite for me… but no… its happening and its reality…. So I drag myself up to a quick brush and a cup of hot tea….And when I am almost awake I run to bus stand to catch a bus….
And then after running back from the railway station I run a quick bath and then off to office…
And I take a auto to CT and midway I realise I have just left the money in my other purse which I had carried to the station and I hav an empty wallet with 3/- and it takes 5/- till CT…
I an honest person thus decide to get down midway pay the 3/- and walk the rest…
The scorching heat has taken the toll and I feel like dehydrating and dying on the raod…
Somehow I make it till CT and look for a cab and its AC…..
And what do I see there.. the usual cabs heading for ATP today deny to take us to campus and the driver claims it’s a new rule… ohh man I hav to now wait in the sun for the next cab….and all these things happen when u really are getting late….phewwwww….
And bang I reach office…and one of my colleague says “hey u have put on blusher also..makeup and all any spl ocassion”….how do I say her its just the sun kissed cheeks and no pehla pehla pyaar….am past the page of that louuu thing....
and its 11.00 now and everyone save me is in knee deep work…and I am supposed to do the same now…. And I realise I have broken my specs….i just don’t know how…but the inevitable has happened….for me working w/o specs is kinda like frog without water….its not impossible but really really tough to pull through the whole day…
And then I am working working and working but y r things not moving….why everybody is able to proceed and for me the App is giving error in every page….. co’on this cannot be happening now when I have to submit deliverables and wanna go back home early…. But why the hell all the pages are crashing with my Midas touch….
And then somehow the minimum amount of work to be done is over and I am ready to run back home…..
And then this nice guy of my floor on whom I have crush for the past 1 yr offers to drop me home…and I deny politely saying I can take a cab back home….F*** my modesty…
And then I see him leaving and I am almost on his way and he might ask me again…and how can I decline him again..it would be so rude…and my heart leaps a bit and then I see someone else also leaps besides me with a big Hello… ohh my long lost some damm frn…and I see him glide past me on his bike…and then I see the cab is also gone and when I turn back my long lost frn is also gone….
And that means I have to wait for half an hour more for the next cab….
Now somehow after the dreaded wait I have achieved to get half way till CT and I intend to take a share auto for the next half….
And I ask autowala “Madhapur” and he frowns and tells “Ameerpet , Checkpost” ..
Go to hell you damm three tyre vehicle owner…. I will get one more…my ego boasts....
And to my saviour comes one good soul who agrees to drop me till my destination…
And now am almost home and when I think of giving the 5/- change I suddenly remember the lowest denomination I have now is 500/- which I just got from the ATM… thanks to my empty wallet you remember rite which i had while coming office...
Oh no no no… this the worst nightmare of both the autodriver and mine… and he starts screaming seeing The Note and after some serious hardwork running from shop to shop on the jammed road I manage to get 495/- + 5/- … I just hope nothing more happens to this eventful day...
And can you just believe all this was happening on my PMS days…
I just cant believe I have gone through all this when I think back… may be I am getting over sensitive.... thanks to PMS... i owe you this emotional outburst…
BUT after this hard day when I rang the bell and heard the sweet tinkling sound of the anklets and when i saw that sweet welcoming smile and that aroma of the mom made food 'methi ke parathe and aloo gobi sabji ' and when I hugged her tight as I went to sleep I just knew that bad times never last long….

Monday, August 24

The Small Town Girl !!!

how does it feel when u grow up in a small town and work in a big one.....

A place where the chai thela wala and the doodh wala and the local grocery store wala and everyone knows u and who is ur dad and what u do....
and then a place where the supermarket guys asks u the address every saturday for a home delivery and looks at u like u were a first timer in the shop....

A place where ur neighbours know u so well that they tend to care for u ...
and then a place where no one knows who lives next door....

A place where if something happens ur cycle even unknown ppl come to ur aid saying "u r Mr. Panda's daughter rite, will let ur dad know dont worry u go home ur cycle wil be taken care of".....
and then a place where in your apartments' parking lot u feel like there is a competition of whos first...

A place where you feel like having a friendly chat with your copassenger...
and then a place where you suspect your copassenger of being a terrorist and fear giving a smile even...

A place where everyone notices what u eat and what u wear....
and then a place where u take poison on a busy street no will say u a thing even....

A place where u find every middle aged man is somehow your dad's frn and every boy ur age is your brother's frn every lady your mom's age surprisingly knows ur mom ...
and then a place where noone talks of the thing called society....

A place where anyone can complain your dad if u go a lil above the avg limit allowed for ur 2 wheeler...
and then a place where no one gives a importance if you dont have the speed in your pace...

A place where money just cant do everything...
and then a place where without money u just cant do anything...

Tuesday, August 18

My Mood Swings !!!

I am a capricornian.....
dont know if i am true capri or not.... but i know certain traits i have of the goat.....
the most certain of all the traits.... one is mood swing....
me and my mood swings.....if i start writing a book then it will be more than all the 7 harry potter books together...
i hope i will someday understand my own mood swings.... keeping my fingers crossed

Wednesday, August 5

my SuperDAD !!!

My Daddy strongest !!!
whenever i see this ad i feel the same as the small kids in the ad....
my daddy strongest.....
dad / papa / baba anything u say for a gal her dad is a superhero....
a perfect dad, a perfect husband, a perfect person, a perfect citizen, a perfect everything.... u name it and we know he can do it.... you pose a question and we know he knows the answer.....
we will always be our dad's princess and he will always be the man who is just perfect....
i dont know how u do it papa....
but u r the electrician, the mechanic, the plumber, the gardener, the office goer, the bodyguard, the genius......
any current affairs and u are aware of it.....
any gk question and u just know the ans....
u just know everything and anything.....
you will be Man (Main) in our life always... and no one can just love us the way u hav done it for years and will do it for years to come....

This Rakhi and forever !!!

This Rakhi and forever .....this blog is just for you my dear bro.....
you hav definitely not spent more years with us but you hav for sure taught us how to show you affection to your loved ones which we will remember for years...
you are definitely much younger to all of us but your maturity of thoughts blended with your kiddish nature is known to all....
with a heart as pure gold...
with a sparking smile.....
with a midas touch....
with a bindaas attitude redefined....
with a charming personality...
a friend of friends...
a charisma you had... to be ever told....
a bond you made.... with one and all....
you have created a void that noone can fill.....we will love you till we breathe....

JLT !!!

Why is human mind always drifted towards the bad ???
When anyone sees a boy and gal together they just assumes these will surely be dating... and when its a V'day it is assumed confirmed to be date .. andwhen anyone sees a boy and gal on the day of the festival Rakhi why do they still think they are on date .... y cant ppl ever think otherwise....

Monday, August 3

Mom !!!

How i would love to remember my mom forever..........
a sweet lady(she has the warmest smile and biggest hug ever), immense patience(my sis will agree , even i do), our first teacher (you have taught us things that made our life better), the best homemaker(you have put your heart and soul to make that place cosy with love and warmth which is why we know where heaven is), the perfect career woman(your students love u mom and i know that why) , a great cook(my mouth waters the moment i think of the food u make for us), a social worker( i dont know how many kids u hav adopted educationally just bcoz u never advertise about it), the most assertive person(you know exactly where to draw the line and where to say NO), the practical lady(who has accepted life as it came), the most content woman(with a loving husband and two loving kids u expect nothing more from life), you know how to say the sweet nothings to make us feel loved and protected, you know you just know what ur kids wants and needs are, you just know our strengths and weeknesses, you just know what we hate and what we love(even if we hav never told u)..... you just know when u need to let us go and when we need to hold on to you .....you just know ur kids are the preetiest in the world (even if no one agrees) and we know you are the Worlds' Best Mom and will love you for all our life

Friday, July 31

childhood and the age of wisdom !!!

Yesterday i was watching a movie "Santa Claus 2" and there are few instances when small kids do recognise Santa even if he is not dressed in his typical santa uniform and nobody has actually told them any such stuff...but... when he speaks to the grown up and tells them clearly that he is The Santa they just dont listen to him and flee away.....
i was wondering and am still if innocence and faith is everything ... if "seeing is believing" is true or "believing is seeing" is true....

Tuesday, March 31

The IT guys talk !!!

A : Hello
B : Hello, its wonderful to hear ur voice..
A : i know its quite a time.. was keeping busy u know..
B : hmm .. i understand ( insider : BUSY ..duh...i know how busy u r )
A : so how r u doing
B : great... nothing much though...just office home office ; what abt u ??????
A : ohh for me its the same
B : so where r u now a days
A : in India... where else...this recession badly hit my on site chances , with H1 in hand i could not go :( :( :( :(
B : hmm... ( insider : good... i don't have any chances even) ... same with me.... anyway we didn't have much scope anyway.. so nothing much to complain about in recession
A : so marriage on cards..... or long going gf or many gf(s) .. whats going on in life

[as if only gal means life..... hold on if there were 2 gals talking they will ask each other so when is ur marriage or any bf ...got ur Mr. right ;) ]

B : nothing यार.... just don't want any लड़की-का-लोचा in life (insider : grrrrrrrrr.... cant find a gf for me and this stupid is asking questions abt gf(s) and marriage )
A : ohh ... is it ?
B : ya .. what abt u ... whats the scene ur side....
A : nothing man.... had a gf ... but long distance relation didn't work good for us

[ that's one more problem for IT ppl, they forget the word trust in a relation and say distance hit our relation badly ]

B : that's sad to know... but don't worry lady luck will favour u sometime (insider : give me the no. of ur ex if she was hot , shall i say this... no no ...leave it for a while ;) )
A : leave it ( insider :i don't want to think m a loser) ... so any on site opportunity coming ur way in future ?
B : nopes man... for us its ..जीना यहाँ मरना यहाँ
A : ok... me too thinking in the same lines now ...
B : pause (insider : HAHAHHAHHOOHOHOOHOHOHEHEHEHHEHEHHAHAHAHHAHAH....)
A : getting hike or bonus this year
B : no ..... u ??
A : no ..no at all :( (inside : good m not the only one :) )
B : sighs :( !!! (insider : thank god no one is getting :) )
A : so any plans for job change ?
B : no planning for some time here ( insider : damn r u mad.. who thinks of a new job when its time to save ur ass first)
A : OK
B : what abt u ?
A : don't know... will do if i get one with a better pay ( insider : but getting one is not easy now, grrrr )
B : will that be wise ?? (insider : what a fool is he, just thinking of money)
A : ya ya why not , u can do it if u show a little guts and u have confidence (insider : साले , फटी पड़ी है मेरी और तू &*#$&#$&* )
B : great to hear that, so getting any calls ?
A : ya got some ( insider : कितना जुगाड़ मारा तुझे क्या बोलूं )
B : wow... how much r they paying ?
A : pause (insider : साला गया ना औकात पर) !! not great but ya its good .... much better then here....
B : let me also know about them ( insider : whats wrong in trying :) )
A : ya ya why not .. any way they are looking for more people (insider : साले चुप... एक टों market की हालात और तू competition में +1 *&$#$&#* )
B : pause (hearts in his eyes , dreaming of more money , more on site , blonds around ...... )
A : hey have to go now .. some urgent call from boss , m really critical resource after returning form on site ( insider : OMG ... BOSSSSSSSSSSSs..... cant use the free phone any more, or he will find reasons to throw me out , i have given him enough by now while on client site :( :(:( )
B : okk bye man.... keep me posted of ...........
A : bye......... trrrrrrrrrr trrrrrrrr [phone disconnected]

Tuesday, March 24

Scrabble and Dyslexia ???

The quater life crisis as people say it when u turn 25 struck me too ....
I got a gift from my friends ... a scrabble
great... its good ... fun to play... but... there is a Big But (mind it its not a Big Butt) attached to it....
so i didnt know whether to be happy or not to be so happy (everyone is happy receiving a gift thats for sure)
last time (i.e few days back when i was about to get into my quater life crisis phase) i was playing Scrabble (read : tryign to play Scrabble) with my friends and then i found or realised whatever u can say it that not only the Kid in Taare Zameen Par (Ishaan Avasthi) or his teacher Amir Khan or the other great people like Da Vince, Akbar the Great had the problem Dyslexia when they were kid but I too felt some symptoms of it after growing up....
The moment i got 7 letters to form a word i could just feel how the kid Ishaan used to see the letters flying and running around...
It was a nightmare and I felt shattered knowing the criticality of the issue.... :(
God help me with the gift that i have got..... or someday i will be an object of study for my special case of dyslexia hitting me so late in my life when i see the 7 letters in a game of scrabble

Thursday, March 12

Jill of all trades master of NONE :( :( :(

I really dont have a talent....
and i know that....
but i am happy that i have learnt few things....
sketching... painting.... art of cooking..... rangoli..... are some of them......
but thinking seriously....
i have concluded something thats not really good for a conclusion....
and the conclusion is am just a jill of all trades but i have mastered none.....

Tuesday, March 10

Beauty or The Brain !!!

Beauty or the Brain ?
a must questioned debate but the answers the perceptions always remain different for each indivisual.

Beauty in itself is such thing whcih differs from person to person , changes identity with sexes.
Men perceive beauty with only right part fo brain whereas women use the whole brain to process beauty-discovery channel article.
so actually if u understand the statement correctly : "Beauty is in the eye of the beholder" , Novelist Margaret Wolfe Hungerford it actually means : "Beauty in things exists merely in the mind which contemplates them", Essayist David Hume.
So the conclusion is its never beauty or the brain its actually beauty and the brain ^_^.
Its ur brain which makes a thing beautiful or ugly , so next time just choose a correct/better brain to decide beauty.

My 26th Valentine's day !!!

I know i am not yet 26, but then how can it be my 26th Valentine's day....
reason being my b'day falls ahead of v'day every calendar year....
okk... now questions answered and doubts cleared....
i will concentrate on my topic... my 26th v'day.....
on this very day... a very strange feeling creeped in my mind....
m still single on my 26th v'day and i have not even celebrated my first ever v'day yet to have my debut performance.....
i hav read somewhere that after 25, as ur quater life crisis starts, the probability of your falling in love and soemthing interesting happening in a girls life drops straight down to '0'(zero)...
oh.. my my....is it true....can it be true...
for the love of mother and child......for the sanctity of the women and their generation....... for the sake of the angels and valkyries ; please tell its not true and punish the author(must be a man i know) of such a demotivating article to have a life in hell with virgins(all male virgins of age 40)......

Monday, February 23

My Best Friend's Wedding !!!

He was all set , all prepared, waited for this moment for so many years since he had met her in his brother's wedding...
to make her his own.... to embrace her as she was always his... to finally tie the knot of marriage and take oaths for a life time....
How they had planned things together, how they had stayed inseparable when they were convincing their families... how their bonding grew...
how he knew what relation they share from the very first moment of seeing her....and how they both evolved to be better persons together... how they were destined to be together.... it was not a mystery to any.....
But as the moment was approaching.... there was something amiss...
with all the eagerness for the Day , the final moment it was clearly written on his face how tensed he was... a new life with new responsibilities and new relations....
i had read somewhere as how everything every moment is life is so different from the other , no two cloud formations are ever the same, no two moments are exactly the same and how newness in life adds to the pleasure of enjoying the moment....
With all the prior planning and preparations and discussions there was nothing really which they didnt know or didnt expect... but the tension building up was really new, not expected and never experienced kind...
and that was what was adding newness to the whole thing.... making the moment unforgetable for both....
Wish them a very happy married life.....

Thursday, February 12

Inevitable Meetings !!!

Meetings : How do they make u feel.....
Does it make u feel as if u r so important handling some critical things.... u can be the show stopper in a fashion show.... something like that....
or ...
its like u r just dragged into them without your wish and u have no escape other than attending them.. even if they make u sleepy...

but u know in such meetings where u r a mere listener they are blessings in disguise....
how ?
ya i know people don't understand it...
so lemme explain...

such meetings give u enough time and space for yourself... just yourself...
where u can be just U... feel true....
isn't that great .... when we keep complaining of work.. life... time and space crunch....
u can really really feel free to disconnect some one's call or keep ur cell switched off according to ur wish.. and people complain .. u can say the truth ... u were in a meeting and couldn't take up the call... ( i know its half the truth.... actually you would be avoiding them.. but then saying the complete truth and spoiling a relation.. or telling a lie to make up a relation.... isn't it better u speak the half truth.... sounds cool huh !!! i know ... ^_^)

but then u know sometimes these meetings really get boring....
so to spice up ur life u should have some interesting things to do....
i know people will ask now .. like what...
so i have some handy tips to save u from falling asleep.. (made the list from my own experience.. hope my manager doesn't know my blog address..gee )

cough and sneeze.. that gives u jolts to make u stay awake
get a big mug full of coffee whenever u enter a meeting room irrespective of the time of the day and the weather outside...
Pass on quick chits and sms to friends who can be trusted...
Get a paper pen and try jotting down points....
Write a blog like i have written "Inevitable meetings"
Try a bit of sketching.. draw a sketch of the person giving the presentation.... (b'coz while u observe them for the sketch ur look will make them feel as if u r really interested in what they r saying and u look enthusiastic about the whole thing)

and after doing all these, if u still feel sleepy.. then...
Don't forget ur specs.. they save u from getting caught when u r sleeping....
or
Try nodding to the points they r highlighting and in between the nods try to take a real quick nap ...

Happy Sleeping :)

Wednesday, February 4

Beauty !!!

Beauty... a topic we talk next to life
for some its life .. yes its true, i have met some of the lot in my small life also...
so many wise talks we hear about beauty ... 'beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder' , 'true beauty is the beauty of the inner self' ; but i do have a doubt that how many of these kind are alive today...
in a general perception ,what i have seen is, think of the inner self later first look at the skin colour...
beauty in India ;what i have seen , is just skin deep. A fair lady is termed b'ful invariably compared to a dark skinned...
to be b'ful u have to first satisfy the condition of being fair skinned...

many a times people perceive beauty without a great complexion just like they have seen a flower exactly with the fragnance of rose which can meserize you if u close your eyes but which cannot be a rose as they dont find it that beautiful........

i guess things are changing now a days but m sure the rate of change tends to be very slow...
lets see what will become history and what will always remain as the present....

Tuesday, February 3

Being Talkative and Introvert !!!

He is talkative, she is so silent....
She is an introvert !!
My boss is an extrovert ...
my neighbour is talkative and nosy...
She seems intorvert but she is not... get to know her and then u would find she is such a chatterbox....

how many such combinations we know ???
many isint....
some introvert , some extrovert...
some are silent yet not submissive...
some talkative and aggressive....
Goshhhhhhhhh
I wonder many a times how God was able to make everyone so distinctly different....
we meet different people with different set of attributes, all having different character set....

but how would i define myself...
yes m a chatter box... no doubt...
i love to voice my opinion about any damm subject...
but at the same time m a intovert....
not possible u think .. right...
not an issue...
but m the live example...
that means its possible....
once a frn of mine almost got an heart attack when i said m so silent.....
but ya i am....
i speak a lot but i dont speak it all...
there are many topics a person might not be comfortable discussing ....
i might like to voice my opinion about something or somebody but i might not be able to give words to my emotions.... possible... isint.....
so that makes me introvert yet talkative......
so now.. all those who might get an attack when i say i am 'silent type person' understand what i mean......
what i speak is just the tip of the iceberg.....
plz dont faint now....

Wednesday, January 28

Travelling alone !!!

Travelling alone; people have different perspective for it..
For some its boring, for some its tiring, for some its like nightmares and they dont want to talk about it even ^_^, for some its unavoidable, a requirement - there is no other option than that,

but for the people like me its a kinda fun...
Sounds strange isint...

Its actually a patience test for a talkative person like me , gee, coz i hardly talk to strangers; but when i have a equally talkative person as my fellow passenger , God save the rest ...
Mostly when i travel alone i become a good listener a keen observer, and that is when travellign alone becomes fun....
U get to see differnt peopel around u, u watch them, their reactions on various topics, u try to imagine their profession , their reason of travelling, the region they might belong, the language they msut be speaking, and then u notice and keep noticing the variety the world possesses...

Try it ... believe me its fun....

Tuesday, January 27

Who will cry when u die ???

Death - something inevitable, a subject of mystery, a subject most discussed about, a topic most researched about yet the most feared...
What happens after death...its the most wondered about topic.

But after all these questions do we care to think who will cry when we die....
What will people discuss about us think about us... good, bad, evil, or simply nothing....
How many souls have we actually touched in our journey of life where we have left a print of the self, the individual being ???

Everyone means something or everything to someone ..
Every death causes someone remember someone so fondly that it sets a smile on the persons face yet fills the eyes with tears and makes a scar on the tender heart...A pleasant memory filled with unbearable pain...

But how many such someone(s) do we have ???

Thursday, January 8

Being Vocal !!!

Since morning i am thinking of only one thing.....
Is it easy to be Vocal.... may be Yes for some and may be No for some.....
for some its just easy like breathing and for some its like a herculean task...
but where do i fall.... in which category.....may be a combination of both....

with all these questions coming to mind my thoughts kept on drifting more and more deeper into them....
one thing i have noticed for all the categories of people ..... expressing and vocalising anger and distaste is easy for all compared to love and affection ...
commenting is easier then complementing....
but y so....
when we know that our anger will definitely ruin some one's precious moment we still go with our words bubbling with anger frustration just like that.... we don't even hesitate to speak them and we never give a thought before speaking...
but when it comes to love... we know it would make some one's day... still we think and rethink rehearse and rephrase our words....

why doing a good thing always so difficult than picking up the bad path...

Sunday, January 4

The language of Love !!!

How important is language ....
How much importance do we give to language....

for me it means a lot... common language not only gives a common platform to interact.. but it gives u so many common topics to post your views...common cuisine... common traditions.. common dressing... common festivals... common beliefs... and many more.....

and for a person like me who is pathetic at learning new languages ... and takes an enormous amount of time in making new friends it becomes lil difficult to start bonding when language becomes a barrier.....

but is there a language for Love too ??? or like any other language LOVE is a language in itself...

it needs no speech or is it understood by all ???
a warm smile... a big hug... eyes full of patience... glow on the face... hands reached out for the other... a calm soul... a free mind... are they the speech of love ???

I got my answers to the question and i could understand it when Karuna, a 4 yrs old kid whom i was meeting for the first time, reached out for my hand cuddling in my arms with a smile ; when i felt the warmth of her breath on my neck and we communicated through silence .... making my soul free of the tight knots..... and making me a part of the endless.....